Why can't I be more normal?!?

  I'm typing this from my closet. I'm having a really bad day with my CPTSD. The parinod thoughts and feelings are getting to me really bad today. I'm hurting because of my neck. Nothing is helping with that. I have tried countless things ans nothing has helped and no one is willing to help me. They want to slap a band-aid on me and tell me I'm all better then I'm not. I'm sorry none of the other things have worked. I really don't wtnt to take any more pills but I hurt. IDK why they have such a hard time believing me. I'm not making this hell up. I just want to get out of this hell. And no one will help.

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